I haven't slept in two days. I'm not even tired. Its so weird its like I'm more awake then ever and holy crap I feel weird. Today I figured that I really hate my house. I'm not allowed to go anywhere because I have to look after my sisters or my mom can't drop me off somewhere but she has enough time to fawn over Kayla. Oh yeah did I mention she was a cheerleader? If I didn't I am surprised because lately that's all everyone been talking about. I know I must sound like a jealous cow but I'm far from it. I'm on the student council and she's on the cheer leading team.
She loves being a cheerleader. I hate it. She goes around and acts like a snobby conceded jerk face. She actually acted like that before but its way worse now. I really hate it. I mean sure at first I was happy for her (I mean really, I'm shocked too! Anyway that was a then and she still doesn't know about it and she never will), but now every time I see her in her cheerleader outfit (or even do any thing that suggests that shes a cheerleader) I feel like strangling her and I am not alone on this subject.
Of course my mom gazes at Kayla like she's the best daughter in the world. Of course I stopped trying to make her happy years ago because I knew that was a lost cause. She isn't proud of me. I'm in band, student council, and my GPA is PAST a freaking four point o (I'm in all advanced classes, they give you more credit for your classes if you are in the advanced classes.)! I've never got a write up in my life and I have charmed every teacher I had (well two of them hate me but they hate almost everyone) but it still isn't enough so I figured whats the point. I stopped caring what she thought about me. I stopped caring what any of my family thought of me. If they don't like me, they don't like me. I can't make them like me. I don't know most of my family (except my Uncle Jessie and my first cousins, Brevin and Keana, and my great grandma. I met a few at Cousin Tad's wedding, but I don't really know them of vice versa. They are okay I guess but I'm talking about my immediate family.).
My mom much anymore. I hate being left here. She's always with Ashley (one of her Friends but I'm okay with her), Melissa (I don't like her as much as Ashley but she's okay. She is jealous of Ashley because Mom spends a lot of time with Ashley.), Michael (I used to hate him but it was only because I was lacking someone to insult. Oh my god that was during the summer! No wonder I've been hating on, never mind. Michael's awesome.), Alex (they have been taking a break but occasionally they hang) and about forty other people that I don't feel like mentioning because I really don't care about the rest. Anyway she leaves me home to watch after Allisa.
Allisa has been acting a whole lot more evil then usual. I mean really! She bit me multiple times and has been a big cry baby then when mom comes home she wails and screams saying that I was evil to her. Ya right Allisa. If I sprayed you with Anti-evil you would die! I love her but she is really annoying me.
Wow I really sound whiny. Oh my god I sound exactly like that weirdo online who ranted on forever about how Brittany Spears should be left alone. You know the one who looks like a girl who was crying and saying "LEAVE BRITTANY ALONE!". O wow. I need to sleep I am really freaking myself out. Thanks for listening to me rant like an idiot.
Annabell
PS. I hate Brittany Spears. That bald photo of her scarred me for life. When I saw that all I could think is horror (I know I thought that was an emotion too) and "Wow she needs HELP!".
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